Here I Go Again

   Me again! And better now, except my heart....it a little broken, but hey it less stress when your single! Its just hard this time of year with valentine's day, especally since it comes on school day (ughhhh). But I try to get through, like being cupid for my friends. I kinda like it to be honest! Just know how some of my friends feel when ever I like guy. But I mean I've never heard sooo many guy drama IN MY LIFE from just three of my friends, just oh my gosh. I wish they would just take a break from the guy stuff and enjoy their life's! There are just so many ways to enjoy it! No, not with drugs, or alcohol, that crap ruins your body! I'm all for living while I'm young, but in the right way. Shocking for a teen my age I know :P There are just so many other things that you can do with your time to me. I hardly doubt that there just might be another teen that thinks like that...but hey, if you are please, feel free to leave a comment! Hehe <3

    

        This SC Governor's School stuff is making me really busy + the NEW month long research paper I have to do on a country of my choice. Sims, school, and friends are keeping me away from depression! I got to spend the night with my morail (Best friend) since Wednesday! Well, only because my step dad was in the hospital again...thankfully he's okay now. My sister came home today, I'm so happy! She's gonna live here for now since stuff happened where she use to live. Even though I still have family drama...I love them to death, I know that God will help make a way for me <3 That's just my beliefs though! Anyways, I'm happy to say I'm so close to the A&B honor roll hehe =] I think that my ADD actually makes me stronger, I might need to take an online class to skip over Algebra 1-Part 2 for next year! I really hope I can! School socially is going fine, I'm working on my confidence, and not letting others get in the way of my happiness. Even if  have to deal with stupid bitches that make up rumors in class, but hey I can't let that get in my way. If they don't like me, that's their problem. Hopefully, at the governor's school or my new school, things will be different. I'm really excited for some of my classes that I got to pick for next year. I just hope my morail and I get lots of classes together!

    

        If your wondering why I keep saying 'morail' its from this web comic homestuck that I got back to reading, if you haven't heard of it, you should defiantly check it out! I made a fan page for Nepeta -she's my favorite- that got to 1k in just a few weeks! Here's the link if you wanna check it out: Nepeta Leijon . Me ad my friends homestuck, I haven't read it in about three years until December! My morail Ariel, friend kayti (that's how she spells it), and I, are even writing a fan fiction with out fan trolls! Mine is Emrald Makara, and yesss, she's Gamzee's sister. We're posting the story on Fanfiction.Net after doing the 1st book! Can't wait to post it! Anyways, I should be going, gonna read some fan fictions to get some ideas for the story. Ttyl bloggers <3

OPPOSITESTUCK (I love this)

Have To Start Somewhere

Today was to long. I swear,if I ever have to be in the car for that long, I'm going to freak out. My claustrophobia almost got to me, but thankfully, I controlled it. Oh, what I would do just not to go to Greenville this weekend. Wish I could have stayed at Gloria's for the weekend. if I had known my brother was gonna come on Tuesday, I would have asked to go with him. But NOOO I have to clean. Which we didn't even do. I spend most of my day in the back of our van, trapped, with a half dead phone, dead iPod arguing, and being quiet. Hey, at least I got taco bell on the way right? At least I had Youtube, and Kik. And didn't have a total freak out. Fine. I guess it wasn't so bad, but my back still aches, and I'm still worried about my mom, who's been having a couching fit/problem for the longest, and just got out the hospital from an allergic reaction to a hair product. I stayed at Ariel's house from last Saturday to Wednesday just to help get it off my mine. I try not to think about all the sad in my life, but it gets so hard sometimes. It only helps to think about my friends, Sims, things I love, but mostly..."him". Now, I may never reveal this special guy on here, but he means a lot. No, he's not my boyfriend -at least yet- he's just a crush. Why feeling. Why do I have to like him. Thinking of him just makes me feel better. Wish my friends would understand that, they must think I'm crazy or something. But the only other things that make me not think of him is homestuck and Sims 3. I just want him to be mine, I thought of him all day in the car. I wanna stop, I don't wanna go through pain again, but its just complicated ok? Ugh. Help me guys. What should I do? You know whats weird? I never really...dream about him...I thought you were supposed to dream of the guy of your dreams. Well anyways, I'm just a teen, and human. Its something almost every girl goes through when they have a crush. Well, I'll tell you all more in the next post. Well, Happy Holidays!

Farewell, God bless, and goodnight <3